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i still think about you sometimes.  and if it’s really late at night i’ll even miss you.  at the same time i’m finally okay with everything including you.  while i don’t particularly want anything to do with you (and having something to do with you isn’t even an option), i do hope you’re doing well and that eventually you’ll have everything you want, i.e. a wonderful person who makes up the beginnings of a family for you.

i’ve finally come to terms with everything.  for months my ideals were all that were left to take care of.  a while back ago i was amazed when i realized i was finally okay and so was my heart.  i just wonder if it’s odd to, after such a long time, be able to feel that little twinge of pain in my heart when i think about you and i, late at night.  maybe it’s just because i’m so tired i’m not thinking clearly or maybe it’s just because here i am still with nothing that has amounted to you or surpassed what we had.

okay maybe some of those ideals i had about us are still haunting me…  was it really special?  i doubt it.  it was probably just a lot of good times and me and you both being silly.

either way here i am today and i’m finally okay.

 

I just hope I have another soulmate out there somewhere that I’ll eventually find…

Facebook.  It’s kind of a little weird.  Suddenly you have a “social network” of people that you hardly ever see or really talk to.  I’ve been thinking about this for a while as yesterday one of my roomies commented on my friend (facebook addict) adding her.

So far all of my friends that facebook addict has met have immediately been added on his Facebook.  When I say immediately I mean the night of meeting them.  Most recently with my roomie he added, he had briefly met her one time when he and I stopped by my townhouse and one night at the bar he hungout with us for a short time.  It’s not as bad as some cases but she found it odd just like I do.

The strangest thing is one time he added the wrong person when searching for my roommate last year.  Suddenly he and I had a friend in common who I went to highschool with.  One day I asked him how he knew her,

Oh I thought that was _____ and added her.  Although I was drunk when I met _____ and added her, I didn’t think it looked much  like her…”

Well yeah because it isn’t her but then you already know that since you went and found my actual roomie and added her.

While, there is nothing wrong with being friendly, is Facebook really friendly or more of just a creepy way to keep track of people and be like woohoo I have 500 “friends”?  I mean obviously he isn’t talking to either of my roommates (past or present) and no one does talk to everyone on their Facebook, but is it really necessary for him to do that every time?

It’s just odd and call me weird but it does bother me.  I mean lets at least hangout a couple of times or talk to the person a bit before sprinting home to add them on Facebook.

Besides adding people like crazy (which really can be almost embarrassing), the night after he met my sister and added her on Facebook an instant message pops up from him (this was like 10am-ish the next morning).  We both couldn’t help but agree that it was kind of creepy.  She became invisible and later blocked him.  When he asked me about her AIM we decided to tell him it was messed up.  I’m not sure if he ever hit my old roomie up on AIM but she also thought the entire thing was creepy and hilarious.

While I love this friend like any other I wish he would stop throwing himself at people.  Being friendly is one thing but he seems to be heading down the path of eventually stalking people on the internet.  And I know embarrassment is silly but when my roomie mentioned and laughed about him adding her I did blush.

Plus, if you’re going to be desperate at least be desperate about something a little more important then Facebook friends;  and yeah I would also appreciate breathing space from him as lately it’s like we’re attached at the hip (it’s driving me crazy!!!).  And when I say attached at the hip I mean a billion instant messages whether or not I’m available, calls and texts when I go out without him, sometimes texts to let me know he’s online (i.e. I want to talk to you! please please please get online!!)and a constant urging to hangout with him every single evening.

And honestly I never experienced “cock blocking” until facebook addict started going out with me and my friends.  To say the least it’s dreadful, and even when it’s just some guy buying me drinks, who I would never sleep with, facebook addict hovers close and butts into our conversations.  This is after I even tell facebook addict I’m working the guy for drinks (yeah feminists usually hate me).

Things have been running pretty smoothly.  Whenever things begin to get dark I now turn the friend that pulled me out of my silliness that one evening, as my best friend is generally busy with work and life.  I also find it hard to tell people about the dumb stuff I think as in the less people I tell it to the better (a reason I don’t talk to roomies about it).

I am not really sure where I am right now.  For once, am I content with life?  The roller coaster of emotions seems to be leveling out.  Or am I just really good at distracting myself?  If so, people you aren’t romantically involved with can be wonderful distractions after all.

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